For the past week I have been thinking a lot about the life that my children will live. I pray daily that they will love their Heavenly Father and glorify God in all that they do. I even pray for their future spouses. That God will bless them with a Godly marriage with Christ as the foundation.
As I thought a lot about this lately I find myself concerned for my children. This world is full of so much evil and my heart aches just thinking about them finding themselves part of the evil of this world.
Lord please protect my little ones!
I have a journal that I write in every so often. It is filled with letters to my 3 year old daughter, Jaylin. I started writing in it when I was 38 weeks pregnant with her (just a few days before she entered this world). Someday I will share this journal with her and I hope she cherishes it like I cherish the memories that I share in the book.
I want to share with you a letter that I have been mentally writing.
I have prayed for God to give me the right words to say and it's time to write it out and add it into her journal.
My dearest Jaylin,
I am so blessed to have you in my life. God chose me to be your mommy and I couldn't be more thankful that He did. My sweet girl, I pray for you. I pray for you daily that you will grow up to be a Godly woman and Lord willing, a Godly wife and mother. I pray for the man that God has already chosen for you to marry. If marriage is in your future then God already knows who you will love, cherish and grow old with.
Mommy was watching a show on TV the other day called The Bachelorette. This show is a perfect example of what God did NOT intend for the process leading into marriage.
1 Girl...25 men...all fighting for her love.
I pray someday a man does fight for you. I pray he has to fight so hard to find you because your heart is so hidden in Christ.
I watch this show and see such heartbreak, such dishonesty, such betrayal, such hatred, such anger.
25 sinners fighting for one sinners love.
On this show I see exactly the type of man I pray you do not end up with. I hope if a man even close to being like any of these men is dropped kicked the moment he comes near you.
As I watch this show I find myself coming up with a few points I want to share with you and I pray and pray that you will remember these and take these to heart:
1. You are SO deserving
I know your dad would say that no man is good enough to deserve you, which is absolutely true, but listen to me, sweet girl, YOU are deserving of someone wonderful, YOU are deserving of someone great, YOU are deserving of a Godly man that treats you with respect and has a crazy unconditional love for you.
Wait for this man. Wait for the man that loves you so deeply and strives for that Christ centered marriage that is so important.
Mommy wishes that she protected her heart for Daddy. Mommy wishes that she wasn't so broken by so many men by the time she reached the man God intended for her, which was your Daddy.
You never know if a man you THINK is the one could possibly be intended to be someones future husband. Be careful, my love. Be so incredibly careful and guard that little precious heart of yours.
2. You are worth something
I'm not talking about how much money you are worth, although there really is no price big enough to put on you. What I mean by this is that there may be times in your life when a boy makes you feel worthless. That can happen so easily. I pray this never ever happens to you, but if it does and you find yourself listening to Satans lie telling you that you are worthless, you tell Satan to take a hike back to hell in the name of Jesus!
YOU are worth something! You are AMAZING. You are INCREDIBLE. You are BEAUTIFUL. You are SO SO SOOOOOO LOVED by God, Mommy, Daddy, your brother, all your family and friends!! Never forget that!
3. Your heart doesn't need to break
There may be a time in your life when a boy "breaks your heart" . Let me tell you something. Your heart cannot break if you guard it and let God be your first priority when it comes to who you love.
Proverbs 4:23 says, "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life."
Put God first in your life and guard your heart. This verse couldn't be more true that it truly does determine the course your life will take.
I hope the course your life takes leads to Christ.
4. You will end up with a bad boy no matter what
This is kinda a silly title for this point, but what I mean by this is I can promise you that you will end up marrying a sinner. You will not find a perfect man out there.
But, you can find a Godly man. Still a sinner, but still a man who loves God more than anything in his life. I pray so often for this man that right now his parents are raising him in a Godly home and his father is an incredible example of what a Godly husband and father is.
Also, that his mother is an example of a Godly wife and mother and shows him what his desires should be for his future bride.
I also pray that I am that example to you. I pray that I am that Godly wife and mother that sets an example to you. I pray that your Daddy is an example of the kind of man you want to spend your life with, because let me tell you, your Daddy is an incredible man and I would LOVE it if God blessed you with a man as great as he is.
God loves you, Jaylin. He has such a wonderful plan for your life and I hope you can trust that plan He has for your life no matter what.
There may be a time where God's plan doesn't make any sense to you and you wonder why some events happen in your life. I wish I could explain to you why bad things happen sometimes, but I can't. All I can tell you is to remember what James 1:2-4 says,
"Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way."
Those times in your life where you don’t know where to turn, you don't know how to face them, you don't know what to do and you feel like things are falling apart. Remember to consider the trial a gift. A joy. I know this sounds like a challenge and it is, but how you handle the trial portrays the person you are. Allow trials to do their work in you. Allow them to help you grow in your relationship with Christ.
Turn to your Heavenly Father in these times and seek HIM through prayer and His word to find your strength.
In addition to this, know that your daddy and I are ALWAYS there for you not matter what. You will always be our baby girl and we will always and forever love you no matter what! Never be afraid to come to us with anything you are struggling with. Daddy and I both know how hard life can be and we never want you to hesitate to come to us with anything.
Mommy and Daddy will continue praying for you daily in all of these ways. I know you are only 3 years old right now and there are not many worries in your little life right now, but someday you will face many challenges and I am praying for you now that God is first in your life and you always seek HIM.
You are a precious gift, Jaylin. I wish you could just stay 3 years old forever, but I know you must grow up eventually. But for now, I am going to tuck this letter away into your journal and share it with you when you are much older and can understand these words.
For now, we will just have your only worries in this world to be where your paci is and whether or not you get a cookie after lunch.
I love you, Jaylin. More than words could ever say!